Everybody wishes for something. Whether its world peace or that you hope when you get home that piece of chocolate cake is still where you left it. It doesn’t matter whether its a huge wish or just an inkling of a wish. It’s still something you want. Something you hope for. Everybody has them, but not everybody gets them. I have them. I have a lot of wishes. Some of them minor, some of them mean the world to me. And most of those dreams will come true, one day. But in order for that to happen. In order for me to be able to say i got that i got my wish. I have to work. And I have to work very hard.
Watching this movie reminded me of somethings. Of why i want to travel, of why being somewhere new, and learning new things fascinates me. I wish I had the money to be able to get on a plane and travel for a year. I hate the feeling of not knowing where my life is going. That feeling of yearning for so many things that it makes my head spin. And I’m not talking about men. I am talking about that yearning for something new and exciting. That yearning to find yourself. A part of me feels like Liz from the movie. For so long I’ve based myself through the eyes of boys. The way I acted & dressed. The fact that when i was about to do something I’d think ‘what would he think about this?’ ‘would he approve of this?’ ‘would he like this?’. I don’t know when i stopped thinking & doing for myself. until I moved to FL. Making that move was the first thing I’ve done for myself in a very long time, or at least that i remember. I stopped thinking how everyone else would be affected by the move & just thought about my future. Of how my life would turn out if i stayed or if i left. & in the end I was right to leave. I haven’t found myself completely but I’m starting to get that balance back in my life. I think that’s why the bigger part of me can’t wait to get back to FL.
I have lived my whole life writing. Whether it be of dreams i’ve had whether they be of heartache and lose or love and happiness. I’ve had them all, but I also write about who I am and what I have been through and who I want to be. I have had so much loss and heartache no person should endure, yet so much happiness at the same time.. does that make sense? I don’t know anymore. That’s why I write. To make sense of it all. I want to be the kind of writer other’s can relate too. I want to remember what i’ve been through and in general.. be remembered. I don’t mean by fame and fortune but by having an impact on one’s life. I want to be the writer one can relate too. Are you that person?
Day 6: What band or musician is most important to you?
I would have to go with NSYNC. I know old school right? But
that is why I choose them. I love all types of music from classical to country
to hip hop and r & b. I love how one song can bring back so many memories.
How listening to a song you haven’t heard in such a long while can bring you
back to time that you may have forgotten, whether it be good or bad. The power
of music is absolutely amazing.
Day 5: Four places I want to visit.
If I could, I would travel all the time. It’s a dream of mine to be able to visit the world and travel to all different countries. I have a bucket list of the different countries and spots that I am determine to go see. So it is very easy to give you a list, but at the same time so hard to narrow it down to just four!