So I have decided to do a blog challenge. I know usually people start these kinda things on the 1st of the month but as you’ll find out I’m not most people. I like to be different and not go by what others expect. Also I’m hoping this challenge will kick my writing back into gear 🙂
Day 1: Write some basic things about yourself.
Well let’s start with the basic’s shall we?
My name is Angela, but my friends & family call me Ang or Angie. I am 29 years old, single & I currently work at Wawa as the overnight shift manager. I absolutely love my job. It’s fast paced and it kicks my butt which I love. I love working in a fast paced environment because for one it keeps me busy but also time goes by very fast which is definitely the best part!
I love to write, as you can see. I have written over 200 poems about some many things that vary from love & heartbreak to life & death. Even nature. Anything that comes in my head whether it be a story, quote, or even a random thought or feeling I write it down. You never know what can come of it. A lot of the time i will start writing, whether it be a poem or part of my book that im writing, and after i’m done I re read it. I am always so baffled because I don’t even realize half of what I write and when I see how well it’s put together I am extremely proud of myself. You never know what you can put your mind too until you actually take the chance to do it.
Have you ever wanted something so bad that it’s all you think about; night and day. It consumes you, it becomes you. No one could ever understand because they aren’t you, they aren’t inside you feeling the things that your feeling. It’s like an ache inside your body; a longing you can only hope to have. You know that feeling. It doesn’t matter how big or small the thing you want is; it’s there & it’s not going away. No one can begin to imagine that yearning especially when they have that one thing that you’re so desperate to have.
For me it’s to have a baby. I am 29 about to be 30 and the only thing I have been thinking about for years now is wanting to have a baby. People think i’m crazy and that I can’t handle it. But they don’t know me. I have changed so much over the years. I know what I want and i’m ready. I have watched everyone around with their babies and my body just aches for it. I know what’s ahead for me. I know whats coming. I know it’s going to be hard but I dont care. I don’t want to wake up one day and realize im too late. Being a mom is one of the most important life changing events in my life that I have been waiting a very long time for, and my question to myself is: Why wait anymore? I don’t need a man in my life to do this. So I will go with a sperm donor. One day in the future maybe i’ll find Mr. Right for me, but until then i’m not holding my breathe. One thing I have learned in life is that you can’t depend on anyone but yourself. I know i will have the support of my family & friends and that no matter what happens to me in the future, that my baby (when I have one) will be so incredibly loved. & that is the only thing that matters to me.
Until tomorrow… *kisses* goodnight!